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October 20th, 2018 at 04:18 am

It is a week tonight since my mom passed. It's still surreal. I have been okay overall. I did cry a bit yesterday. I probably will today. I am going to see my dad. He picked up the ashes yesterday. Also, my nephew will be there, and I am sure he doesn't fully understand (autistic).

It's a long story, but my grandma was moved again. She is having a lot of behavior issues. The family is completely stressed out and has no clue what to do at this point. My uncle actually passed out at the hospital. Luckily, he is okay. They attributed it to the stress.

On a financial note, I have only spent on gas in over a week with the exception of two pumpkins for the grandkids yesterday ($6). I have lived on leftovers from last weekend this week. I will eat at my dad's all weekend. I will finally head to the grocery store on Monday when I get back home.

I am thankful I have a three and a half day weekend. Yesterday, it was bitter but we went to the apple orchard. My grandson was in a mood so with that and the weather it wasn't all that fun. I hope to spend a little time with friends in the Detroit area this weekend. I need the distraction!

Send prayers/good thoughts to my youngest. His road trip/visiting ends tomorrow and he heads to Germany for two years. I am excited for him but also sad he will be so far away.

Mom is Gone

October 14th, 2018 at 03:05 am

My mother was removed from the ventilator at 1:20 PM Friday afternoon. We were shocked she didn't pass within minutes. My oldest son (youngest had to get back on road for rest of trip before heading to Germany), daughter and I stayed the night. My oldest son finally went home with his family early afternoon yesterday. The kids needed to get back to some normalcy.

My dad left at six. He was exhausted. He said to call when we saw the vital signs deteriorate more. He lives within 5 minutes of the hospital. My daughter had went to my car to get something, and the monitor went haywire. I texted her to get right back and called my dad. He did not make it in time, but she did. We held my mom's hands as she took her last breaths. She died exactly one month before her 70th birthday.

It was a brutal last few days, and I am so very tired. I did sleep last night out of exhaustion. My daughter is going home tomorrow. I will spend the day with her and my dad. I will take one more day off school and go home tomorrow after taking her to the airport.

My dad is sad but doing fine overall. My mom has had health problems for a few years now. I honestly think he is relieved.

We had a family brunch yesterday while my daughter and my cousin were in town in honor of my mom. She didn't want a funeral service.

My grandma is having major behavior issues lately so we have decided not to tell her for now. It's tough thinking of keeping this from her. However, we don't want to move her again if she becomes too out of control for this facility.

Anyhow, I wanted to post an update. I appreciate all the nice comments and your support on the last post.

Worst Day of My Life

October 10th, 2018 at 08:47 pm

I came home from school and found out my mother had a massive stroke. She is on a ventilator, and we are holding off on removing anything until my daughter gets here from NC tomorrow night (and she is nearly 7 months pregnant). This is all so surreal, and I feel like I am in the middle of nightmare.

At least my youngest was still here on leave from the Air Force. It is also my oldest son's birthday.

The family has also decided to tell my grandma. She is with it enough to understand, but I am sure she will forget it by the next day.